hello terrible two's, thanks for showing up!

i can't believe i am actually typing this but i think carson has reached the dreaded stage of the "terrible twos." even though he is about to turn three in a month and a half, so i guess it should be the "terrible threes" for us. let me just say that he is such a sweet boy. many times during the day for no reason at all he gives me hugs accompanied with an "ohhhh, mom" that just melts my heart. but then, out of nowhere (well not really, it is almost always because brooks has touched one of his toys he is playing with), he will throw himself on the ground and pout. it's almost like he is holding his breath until he gets the toy back. or, if he sees brooks coming his way which happens about 99% of the time, he will throw whatever it is he is playing with in hopes of saving it from the grabby little hands of of his brother. i know that this is because it is his brother and he has never had to share anything before but it is really bothering me. i guess i had grand dreams of the two of them playing together like best friends from the beginning. i know, i know, that is a crazy dream to have, but i had it.

we also see a bit of this side when we are trying to get carson to eat something of substance for dinner. breakfast isn't too bad, i can get him to drink his milk and eat a granola bar. lunch sometimes is a chocolate shake and fries or sometimes yogurt and grapes, it just depends on his mood. but dinner, oh dinner, how i have come to hate you. feeding this child dinner is a task. many times he tries to hide his head under the table. sometimes i think he is going to fling himself out of the chair. we've found a few tricks that work but they don't last long. we know he is done when he doesn't even want his M&Ms for a bite of dinner. then we know we have lost. it really stinks loosing to a two year old!

so in hopes to get carson used to sharing and playing with other kids i am taking them to a playgroup i found. i am praying that carson does well. i explained to the woman who is in charge of it about his physical needs and it didn't seem to be a problem. i really think that mingling with other children and having to share the toys being played with will help him here at home and for when he eventually gets in to school. i'm also hoping that seeing the other kids up and walking around will motivate him to want to do it more and more. let's pray that things go well and it's just a "brother" frustration and not some behavior problem! this parenting gig sure is hard stuff.