First Mother's Day
This is not really how I envisioned my very first Mother's Day. To be honest, I don't even really feel like a mother. I don't get to do all the things that most mothers do. It wasn't really easy to go up to see the boys today. I kind of wish we could just skip over this day. I think I'll just count next year's Mother's day as my first.
Let's see, where to begin on today's report? It hasn't been a great day for those. Cooper's infection/inflammation levels went up, so they are still trying to figure out what is going on. He got 3 new lines in him and they took out the old ones thinking maybe that is where it is coming from. He was wide awake and looking all around when we had him open. I wish everyone could see the way he looks around and raises his eyebrows like he is thinking about something. It's so sweet. His blood pressure was about the same. Andrew and I can notice that his tiny head is starting to swell. He really needs to get over to Scottish Rite to have his VAD put in but they can't do that until the infection levels come down.
Carson now has a little infection too. Maybe he was feeling left out? He is starting to get tired on his breathing machine and I am afraid they are going to have to put him back on the ventilator. I know they said it could happen, he could go back and forth several times, it just sucks to see him doing so well for a few days and then begin to struggle. I did get to hold him today. I think their nurse felt sorry for me having to spend my first Mother's Day crying. It did make me feel better to have him on me. I just wish I could hold both of them.
My sweet, sweet husband gave me a pair of beautiful earrings for Mother's Day and he planted "baby's breath" for me from Carson and Cooper. I don't know what I would do without Andrew as my husband. I don't think anyone else could handle me, being the basket case I am (which I was like this before we had kids!) and also having to go through all of this as a father. He seems to handle everything so well which allows me to feel the way I do. Not many men could handle this like he is and for that I am grateful.
Happy Mother's Day to all you moms out there. I hope you had a good one.
Let's see, where to begin on today's report? It hasn't been a great day for those. Cooper's infection/inflammation levels went up, so they are still trying to figure out what is going on. He got 3 new lines in him and they took out the old ones thinking maybe that is where it is coming from. He was wide awake and looking all around when we had him open. I wish everyone could see the way he looks around and raises his eyebrows like he is thinking about something. It's so sweet. His blood pressure was about the same. Andrew and I can notice that his tiny head is starting to swell. He really needs to get over to Scottish Rite to have his VAD put in but they can't do that until the infection levels come down.
Carson now has a little infection too. Maybe he was feeling left out? He is starting to get tired on his breathing machine and I am afraid they are going to have to put him back on the ventilator. I know they said it could happen, he could go back and forth several times, it just sucks to see him doing so well for a few days and then begin to struggle. I did get to hold him today. I think their nurse felt sorry for me having to spend my first Mother's Day crying. It did make me feel better to have him on me. I just wish I could hold both of them.
My sweet, sweet husband gave me a pair of beautiful earrings for Mother's Day and he planted "baby's breath" for me from Carson and Cooper. I don't know what I would do without Andrew as my husband. I don't think anyone else could handle me, being the basket case I am (which I was like this before we had kids!) and also having to go through all of this as a father. He seems to handle everything so well which allows me to feel the way I do. Not many men could handle this like he is and for that I am grateful.
Happy Mother's Day to all you moms out there. I hope you had a good one.
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much love, Kellie (Walter) Furin
Scott and Joelle
We'll make you an honorary kiwi today. Mother's Day was yesterday down here, and it's Monday morning here. Checking in on the blog is the first thing I do in the morning. Hang in there, Sweetie; we are all hoping for better days soon!
Love,
Jeff
Lisa
Aunt Carol, Happy First Mother's Day as a Grandmother!!
Carsen and Cooper, Happy belated one-month birthday!!!
We love all the pictures and look forward to seeing and reading about the boys everyday.
Love,
Uncle Stan, Aunt Linda, Jon, and Lindsey
We just want to let you know that we are thinking of you and your precious boys. I cannot even imagine how you must feel each day and the emotional rollor coaster that you are going through. I know that you are doing everything you can! Happy First Mother's Day! When you look back you will, be able to appreciate the journey. Hang in there!
With love, Bryan, Wendy, and Zebediah
I'm sorry the boys are still such a roller coaster for you. The good thing about being the mom is you get to make the rules - so "what mother's day?" I ask! Never happened!
You're both doing a great job and don't think for a moment that you're not a mom because you can't do the "usual" things. I say you're a super-mom because you *don't* get to do the usual things but you've handled all these unusual things with such grace. Hang in there, those boys will come around soon!
-A
Mothers love their kids - and you certainly fill that bill! Hang in there, and know that so many people are praying for you, Andrew, and the boys. Love you, Beth
We are still checking on you guys about every other day and thinking about you every day.
Stay strong and optimistic!
You are the perfect example of how great mother's love is. I know that next Mother's Day will be a lot easier. Hopefully, it will incorporate flowers, breakfast in bed, and all the other pampering that you deserve. Am I hearing massage?? :) Carson and Cooper are so lucky to have you and Andrew as their parents.
We are all praying for Carson and Cooper's healthy recovery!
love, april
Lori and Amy
Bless you and your new family,
Aunt Nancy
My heart goes out to you and Andrew in dealing with this challenging situation. I will keep you and your family in my constant thoughts and prayers. I am confident that your strength will allow Cooper and Carson to pull through this one. They are very lucky boys to have such wonderful parents. I look forward to getting in touch with you next time I am in Atlanta. Stay positive and hang in there lady!
Much love,
Leanne
Love,
Kristen